Melissa Bright: 0:00

I'm not that little girl anymore. I am loved. I am loved. I am worthy of love. I am worthy of love. I have love in my life right now. I have love in my life right now. Welcome to the bright side of life, a podcast where people share their personal stories of struggles, pain and grief. But through all of that, they are still able to find the joys in life. Hello, Hello, everyone. Welcome to this week's episode of the bright side of life. This is something that I have never done, but I have been talking about it on social media. Two weeks ago, we had Lauren gene on who is a rapid transformational therapist and also inner voice facilitator. And today's episode is going to be of Lauren actually doing an RTT session on me. If you're not familiar with what rapid transformational therapy is, go check out Episode 36 before listening to this episode, and Lauren explains exactly how it works and what it does. So this is what you guys are going to be hearing. Of course right now I'm close to my microphone, but since this is going to be me and hypnosis, I'm going to be a little bit further away from on my microphone, I've tried to turn up the volume, but I just wanted to let you guys kind of experience what I'm going to be going through if this was something that you guys were interested in. So sit back, enjoy the ride, like I'm about to do. Alright, I'm ready, Lauren.

Lauren Jean: 1:49

Okay, let's do this. Okay, so the first thing that we're going to do is we're going to get you nice and relaxed. Okay? So we want to do is just close your eyes. For this, we're going to open them again, but close your eyes for this breathing. I just want you to take six deep breaths in, hold it at the top for two or three seconds. And then just slowly bring it out for about another five or six seconds. I just want you to do a couple of rounds of this. There's no set limit. whatever you're comfortable with when you can kind of feel your body relax. And then I just want you to open up your eyes. And then we'll get started. Okay, perfect. Okay. Make sure you're nice and comfy in that chair. Right. keeping yourself just looking straight at me just like you are chin straight. I just want you to roll your eyes up, as if you're looking into your own eyebrows. That's perfect. Just like that. take a nice deep breath in, keeping your eyeballs rolled up all the way up way up as if you're trying to look into your own eyebrows. And just figure fix your eyes at a real or imagined spot overhead. take a nice deep breath in. Slowly bring it out, you're going to start to feel your eyes fluttering, flickering, kind of getting tired that you're going into hypnosis, keeping our eyeballs all the way up, way up all the way up, keeping that breathing going. Deep breaths in keeping your eyeballs glued to that real or imagined spot overhead. And each time you blink. That's hypnosis coming upon you Melissa. One more time. Breathe in and breathe out. And as you breathing out, you're just gonna close your eyelids all the way down, way down. Keeping your eyeballs all the way up inside of your eyes. You're feeling that fluttering sensation. And that is the first sign that you're responding wonderfully and perfectly. Your eyes are sealed shut, closed, shut locked tight, Melissa. You can just forget all about your eyes and just allow a drifting floating feeling to develop in your entire body. You don't need to do anything. I want you to just simply imagine that you're looking down 10 steps descending. You can drop your chin, just a fraction. So you get that looking down sensation looking down. If you're looking down that staircase, and I want you to flood your mind with a beautiful color, whatever color comes to mind, use that first. Go with your instincts go with that trust. So flood that staircase with that beautiful, relaxing, calming color. And you're looking down those 10 steps and as I count down, you're going to move down each step at a time. You're going to see your feet, feel your feet and hear your feet take Can each step you moving down to step 10 is each muscle every nerve turns loose, lets loose and you go deeper. You're taking Step nine and eight. You can see your feet on that staircase here your feet, feel your feet, treading each step. As you move down, drift down, traveled down to an even deeper level, Melissa take Step seven. Slowly. take a nice deep breath in and just relax into it. You're going down another level, a deeper level into your awareness of yourself. You're taking Step six, and five drifting way down deep. You're taking Step four, as each muscle, every nerve turns loose, lets loose, you go deeper. You're taking Step three, every sound, every noise, every movement around you is carry you deeper and further into hypnosis. Taking step two as you gently calmly easily move on to an even deeper level, Melissa, you're taking step one, just sleep deeply. When I say sleep deeply, this is just asleep of the nervous system, you're not actually going to sleep. And as I say, go deeper, drift deeper, float deeper. You're just going deeper and deeper, going deeper into an awareness of yourself. It's about being suggestible. Now, I'm going to show you just how extraordinary suggestible you are. Millis, I'm going to tell you that your eyes are glued, shut, sealed shot, locked, tight, so much that just the thought of opening them is something you really can't be bothered by. Melissa, your eyes are sealed shut, fused together, locked together. Just try to open your eyes, find that they're locked tight. Go deeper. Try to open your eyes, find that they are sealed shut. Go deeper. Just one more time, try to open your eyes and find that they are glued together, go deeper, and deeper and deeper. Melissa, that's perfect. So that you can see that you are incredibly suggestible just as suggestible as you are you gave yourself suggestions earlier in this lifetime, that made you act and feel as if you can't trust yourself. Melissa, I'm a great believer that you can't fix what you don't understand. And I believe in order to heal, that feeling. That lack of trust, it's very useful to understand how where, why. And when you acquire this feeling, this belief, your mind already knows it. And as I count backwards, it will take you straight back to the cause of you not trusting yourself. Now, Melissa, when we go back to these scenes, I want you to understand this is safe, this is comfortable place for you to be in, not reliving this reliving the scenes. Your subconscious mind is simply taking us there so that it can understand. And it can help you understand why where when how you acquire this lack of trust. So Melissa, I'm going to count back from five to one. And your brilliant, ingenious subconscious mind is going to take you right back to a scene, a place a time and an event that all has to do with why you don't have this trust in yourself. So Melissa, on the count of five, you're drifting back to a vivid, vital, crucial scene. That all has to do with why you're not trusting yourself. On the kind of for you becoming younger, on the count of three and two, you're becoming smaller, lighter, shorter, drifting right back right now to a scene, place, time and event. That all has to do with why you're not trusting yourself today. On the count of one, you're easily going way back easily. Melissa, just be there. A scene is coming into your mind easily, effortlessly. And automatically. Melissa, in this scene, what is going on? What are you seeing doing feeling or experiencing in this scene right now?

Melissa Bright: 9:20

I wanted to go sit on my dad's lap. And in a chair.

Lauren Jean: 9:29

Okay, in this scene, is it daytime or nighttime? It's mid afternoon. And you're inside, correct? Yep. And about how old are you in the scene? Five or six. And you're with your dad. So you're saying you wanted to go back and you wanted to sit in his lap. Right. Okay, Melissa, what do you feel In this scene with your dad when you're saying you wanted to sit in his lap, but something happened that you didn't sit in his lap.

Melissa Bright: 10:07

I sat in his lap. But then it's like he became aggravated with me and annoyed and and shooed me off his lap

Lauren Jean: 10:19

and asked us this five or six year old, how did that make you feel? What was the feeling that this five or six year old took in? I felt unwanted. Okay. So I want you to repeat after me and fill in those blanks. I'm feeling unwanted. Because I'm feeling unwanted because my dad wanted me off his lap. And that made me feel and that made me feel sad. Feeling unwanted and said, what did this five year old six year old you make this mean? about herself? That I'm not worthy of love. Okay, doing a great job. Great job, Melissa. I just want you to take a nice deep breath in. And breathe out. yourself. nice, comfortable, relaxed. Doing a great job. I just want you to repeat after me. I'm not that little girl anymore.

Melissa Bright: 12:05

I'm not that little girl anymore. I am loved. I am loved. I am worthy of love. I am worthy of love. I have love in my life right now. I have love in my life right now. I don't need anyone's approval, not even my dad. I don't need anyone's approval, not even my dad. Because I prove approve of myself. Because I approve of myself. That will never be me again. That will never be me again. I'm lovable and I'm perfect. I'm lovable and I am perfect. Just the way I am. Just the way I am. No one's better than me. No one is better than me. I'm enough. And I always have been. I am enough and always have been.

Lauren Jean: 13:00

And I want you to fill in this blank. Today I have what? First thing that comes to mind.

Melissa Bright: 13:07

Today I have acceptance.

Lauren Jean: 13:11

Good job, good job keep repeating after me. That's when I didn't have any control. That's when I didn't have any control. That's when others were responsible for me. That's when others were responsible for me. That's when I didn't have a voice. That's when I didn't have a voice. That's when I was a child. That's when I was a child and didn't have money to buy the things that I wanted. And I didn't have I forgot what it was money. I didn't have money. And I didn't have money to buy things that I wanted to buy things that I wanted. That's when I was a child and I hadn't developed certain abilities. That's when I was a child and hadn't developed certain abilities. Now this next bunch, I want you to say with a little power behind it, whatever it comes out of you. Now I can do what I want because I'm an adult. Now I can do what I want because I'm an adult.

Melissa Bright: 14:18

Now I am powerful. Now I am powerful. Now I have a voice. Now I have a voice now I have the money to buy things that I want and need.

Lauren Jean: 14:29

Now I have money to buy things I want in need. Now I have skills that I didn't have before. Now I have skills I didn't have before. Now I can communicate properly. Now I can communicate properly. And now I can love myself no matter what. And now I can love myself no matter what. without needing the approval of anyone else around me

Melissa Bright: 14:55

without needing the approval of anyone else around me.

Lauren Jean: 15:00

Good job, take a nice deep breath in. And just keep listening. Similar to the way that you behaved when you were that child, that five, six year old child would totally appropriate how you were, at that time, it was normal behavior for a child, every other child would have felt and behaved the same exact way. If they had experienced that same thing. I can just repeat after me, as if you're still there in that scene. Today, if I was in that situation, today, if I was in that situation, I would do blank instead. What would you do instead? I would speak up instead. Today, if I was in that situation. Today, if I was in that situation, I wouldn't do what? I wouldn't keep quiet. So that's not me anymore. So that's not me anymore. Good job. take a nice deep breath. I just want you to allow that scene to disintegrate, dissipate. Leave the mind. Take a deep breath in. Breathe out readouts. Good job, good job. So that was a really good scene very clear. Very clear. It was clear all on its own. But we want to get some more juicy stuff so that you can truly understand where this lack of self trust has come from. So let's go back to another scene, Melissa? another scene. So I'm gonna count backwards again, from five to one. Your brilliant subconscious mind is going to take you back to another scene, place time and event. That all has to do with why you're not trusting yourself. On the count of five, you're drifting back to a vivid, vital, crucial scene, all that has to do with why you're lacking the self trust. On the count of four you becoming younger. On the count of three and two, you're becoming smaller, lighter, shorter, drifting back right now to a scene, place, time and event that all has to do with why you're lacking the self trust. On the count of one you're going way back easily. Melissa, just be there. A scene is coming into your mind easily, effortlessly and automatically. Melissa, in this scene, what is going on? What are you seeing doing feeling or experiencing in this scene?

Melissa Bright: 17:52

I'm at my dad's house in Tennessee. And we're supposed to be doing outside chores like picking up sticks or something. Okay, so you're at your dad's house in Tennessee. And you're supposed to be doing chores outside. I'm assuming this is daytime. Am I correct? Yes. in the morning. Daytime in the morning. And in this scene who is with you? It was my brother and my step sisters and my stepbrother. There were five of us. five siblings all together. Okay,

Lauren Jean: 18:43

so in this scene, where you're outside with your brother, your step sisters, your step, siblings, I should say, your support. You say you're supposed to be doing these chores, or you're actually doing them outside.

Melissa Bright: 18:56

We're doing them outside, but it's not to my dad's standards.

Lauren Jean: 19:02

Okay, so what are you feeling in this scene? Tell me what is the feeling? I just feel stupid. And Melissa, how old are you in this scene about how old maybe 10. Okay, so tell me why are you feeling stupid? Why is this feeling of stupid coming up?

Melissa Bright: 19:30

My dad didn't have patience with us. And so he got mad if we didn't do something in the exact way that he wanted us to do. Okay, and he would show anger.

Lauren Jean: 19:52

Okay, so again, finish the sentence. I'm feeling stupid because my dad didn't have patience. And this made me feel Feel like I was, what? worthless. Okay, take a nice deep breath and doing great. Absolutely Fabulous. Breathing going for a little while. Again, I just want you to repeat after me. So Melissa, I just want you to imagine, as if your father is in front of you right now. create this image inside of your head, however it looks however age you are doesn't matter. Just bring him to the forefront of your mind. feel him there, feel him there with you feel his presence, allow that energy. And I want you to tell him some things, I'm going to lead you through this. But ultimately, you're going to take over. Dad, I want to tell you how I feel about Take a deep breath. And remember, you're safe in this space. you're connecting with him right now. He can't speak back. He's just there to hear you. willingly. He's here to listen. So again, repeat after me, Dad, I want to tell you how I feel about finish that sentence.

Melissa Bright: 21:54

Dad, I want to tell you about how I feel about just not feeling loved by you. And I resent that I feel this way. And I resent that I feel this way. You had no right to treat me the way you did when I was a child. You had no right to treat me the way you did. As a child.

Lauren Jean: 22:23

You had a duty to look after me and love me.

Melissa Bright: 22:27

You had a duty to look after me and love me.

Lauren Jean: 22:31

You were meant to fill in that blank. You were meant to love me. No matter what, no matter what you're meant to put me first I was a child.

Melissa Bright: 22:46

You were meant to put me first I was a child, you put you first, you put you first. And in doing so. And in doing so you taught me that I filled up Lincoln, you taught me that I am not lovable and not worthy of love. And I really resent you for that. And I really resent you for that. Now I want you to just allow whatever else that you need to tell your father while he's here listening to you. Let out whatever needs to come out. Right now, Melissa. I just want to tell him that I know. It's not all of his fault. But I wish he would have at least told me that it wasn't his fault. And that he had a hard childhood also. Maybe I could have came back to him with some compassion and understanding. But it took me years and years and years to understand that it wasn't me. And that also wasn't my dad's fault. And I do forgive him. Good job. Good job. Now take a deep breath in. Breathe out. Deep breath out. Take another deep breath in. Breathe in. Just let it out. Good job. Good job. Willis. I

Lauren Jean: 24:37

want you to switch places. Be Your father switch places right now. Look at your wonderful, beautiful, gorgeous, successful daughter and tell her honestly. Why did you do everything that you've done to her and made her feel the way she did unworthy tell Why you did what you did.

Melissa Bright: 25:03

I did it because I didn't know how to be a father. I didn't know how to show my own children love, because I didn't get the love to be able to pass that forward to you. I didn't know how to act around you. I was scared sometimes of you. I didn't know how to handle a little girls emotions or anything like that. So instead of doing that, I just stayed away. When I know that wasn't probably the answer. But it's all I knew how to do. Maybe to just keep you away from me hurting you, I would just stay away. So, good job. Take a deep breath in. Flip places, go right back to your muscle, take a deep breath and you're doing amazing. You're doing amazing, the safe space. Take a couple deep breaths. And just allow that to just go away, float away.

Lauren Jean: 26:31

Come back to calm just like you are. And just take those breaths in. So Melissa, you have this extraordinary gift right now. You're incredibly suggestible. And you know that understanding is power and understanding in hypnosis is the most phenomenal healing extraordinary power that you could have. You're able to look over and around so many things in your childhood. And even though they were horrible, and they made you feel horrible as that child, that's not your life, and it will never be your life again. Because understanding his power. Take a deep breath in, continue to just relax and sit with that. Amazing, that breath going. Good job. Good job. So Melissa, I just want you to turn your eyes in, as if you're looking into your own mind. turning those eyes and looking into your own mind, we're gonna find the part of you, Melissa that created this problem, this lack of self trust. And I just want you to repeat after me. And again, you're just going to fill in the blanks like we did previously. on the part of Melissa. I'm the part of Melissa, that came up with lack of self trust. That came up with lack of self trust. And my role in Melissa's life is to first thing that comes to mind.

Melissa Bright: 28:35

And my role in Melissa's life is to keep control. Okay, perfect. I'm the part of Melissa that came up with lack of self trust. And the part of Melissa that came up with lack of self trust. And my function in Melissa's life is to, again, first thing that comes to mind function, my function in Melissa's life is to keep control. Okay. I'm the part of Melissa that came up with lack of self trust. I'm the part of Melissa that came up with self lack of self trust. And my purpose in Melissa's life is to first thing that comes to mind. My purpose and Melissa's life is to keep control. Okay. I'm the part of Melissa that came up with lack of self trust. I'm the part of Melissa that came up with lack of self trust.

Lauren Jean: 29:43

And my intention in Melissa's life is to what?

Melissa Bright: 29:47

And my intention is to keep control job I am the lack of self trust. I am the lack of self trust.

Lauren Jean: 30:07

And I came into Melissa's life when she was how old first thing that comes to mind. First thing, first thing, and I came into Melissa's life at five years old. And I want you to tell me what was going on in Melissa's life when she was five years old that made it interesting for her to come up with you. The problem lack of self trust what was going on at five years old? In Melissa's life. I was constantly being corrected for everything that I did. From the way I did chores to the way I opened a can of spaghettios it was like I had a magnifying glass on me. That constantly told me I was doing something wrong. Okay. All right, Melissa. So now you have this understanding, you have this lightbulb moment. So this entire time, trying to keep control, trying to keep control all the time, because you always felt like you were doing something wrong. So having this understanding, like I said, this is your lightbulb moments, you can see that you did this, you can see that at the age of five, your subconscious mind was able to create this protection mechanism to help you keep control of yourself. And this sort of clue is amazing. This is great. Because you created this at five years old, such a young age, such a young age. So if you did this a five years old, you can recreate this, you can have this amazing self trust, as 35 years old. And you don't need anything else but an understanding. Because it's so powerful to recognize this teeny little piece that a five year old mind created. So it's just think, to yourself right now. And you can even say this in your mind, or you can say this out loud, whatever feels right for you. I had the power to do that at five. How cool is that? It's pretty impressive. I had the power to do that in five that it that's pretty impressive. Pretty impressive. So like I said, if you had the power to create a belief at five years old, to keep control of yourself, so that you didn't have to be crazy, be corrected all the time and feel put down for that. Your mind is just trying to help you keep control to keep you safe. I did that at five, you're 35. Now that is pretty cool. Just take a deep breath and Melissa and just repeat after me. As a child, I was enough. As a child, I was enough. I was so much more than enough. I was so much more than enough. When I tried to sit in my dad's lap when I tried to sit in my dad's lap, and he got aggravated. And he got aggravated. I was amazing. Still,

Melissa Bright: 33:56

I was amazing still, and I was enough. And I was enough. That wasn't me. That was his problem. That wasn't me. That was his problem.

Lauren Jean: 34:09

Because he didn't know how to handle a little girl

Melissa Bright: 34:13

because he didn't know how to handle a little girl. And he didn't know how to feel loved. And he didn't know how to feel loved.

Lauren Jean: 34:23

And when I was at my dad's house doing chores,

Melissa Bright: 34:26

and when I was at my dad's house doing chores, I was enough. I was enough. He didn't have patience. He didn't have patience. But that's him. But that's him. That's not me. That's not me. I'm enough. I always have been. I'm enough. I always have been. And I know it and everyone else knows it. I know it And everyone else knows it.

Lauren Jean: 35:05

Thank you so much for trying to help me the way you did.

Melissa Bright: 35:10

Thank you so much for trying to help me the way that you did subconscious mind, subconscious mind.

Lauren Jean: 35:18

And I get it, I understand why you did that. And I get it, I understand why you did that. You were trying to keep me in control. You were trying to keep me in control. Your only intention was to help me, your only intention was to help me. But I don't need help anymore. But I don't need help anymore. I'm 35. Now, I'm 35. Now, I'm not five anymore. I'm not five anymore. I'm not insecure, I'm not insecure, I can trust myself and I do,

Melissa Bright: 35:55

I can trust myself. And I do.

Lauren Jean: 35:58

And fill this blank in, I'm able to do what I am able to love myself. And I'm not scared of what. And I'm not scared of trust. And I've got so much power. And I have so much power. And I have so much love. And I have so much love. And I have so much understanding for myself. And I have so much understanding for myself. And I do trust myself. And I do trust myself. And I'm going to use this power to stop what.

Melissa Bright: 36:36

And I'm going to use this power to stop doubting myself.

Lauren Jean: 36:42

So I don't need you anymore. So I don't need you anymore. take a nice deep breath. So Melissa, I want you to see to that part, that part of that control. That piece that was trying to help you repeat this after me. After 30 years, I can stop.

Melissa Bright: 37:11

After 30 years, I can stop. After 30 years, it's really time to go away. After 30 years, it's really time to go away. And I'm letting you go now. And I'm letting you go now. Take a deep breath.

Lauren Jean: 37:32

Great job. Just keep that breathing going. doing amazing. Again, just repeat after me. Melissa, I want you to close your eyes, keep them closed. And imagine that in your lap right now. You're holding yourself when you were that little girl. At five years old, I want you to feel her in your lap. This happy bouncy little girl who is just all love. She's complete of want you to connect with her, feel her warmth on your body. Hold her hand or hug her. Just be there with her. And I want you to look her in the eye. Eyes at this perfect, beautiful, lovable liberal thing. The most gorgeous thing you've ever seen in your entire life. And I want you to repeat after me. Melissa, I'm becoming the parent, you should have had and needed to have. Melissa I'm becoming the parent I should have had and needed to have. No one in this world can play this role like I can. No one in this world can play this role like I can. And as your loving parent and as your loving parent. I'm telling you that anything bad. I'm telling you that anything bad. That happened wasn't your fault. That happened wasn't your fault. You're safe now. You're safe now. Because the thing you didn't have as a child because the thing you didn't have as a child

Melissa Bright: 39:45

was a voice or any power was a voice or any power. Now you have a voice and you have that power. Now you have a voice and you have that power. I want you to know that I love you. It exactly the way you are. I want you to know that I love you, and I love you exactly the way that you are. I love you completely and unconditionally. I love you completely and unconditionally. I know what to do. I know what to do. I know how to do it. I know how to do it. And nothing can stop me. And nothing can stop me. Because I'm on fire now. Because I'm on fire now. Take a deep breath.

Lauren Jean: 40:36

And just listen. So Melissa, you see, you know much better than me right now. What did you most need to hear when you were that five year old? What did you need to hear? I want you to tell her right now. What did she need to hear? Just tell her right now all the things that this little girl was craving from her father, or her mother or anyone in her life? What did she need to hear?

Melissa Bright: 41:07

She needed to be told that she's loved. Tell her tell her. You are loved. You are loved. And it's okay. If you make mistakes. They can be fixed. And you don't have to be sad. If this you're just a child, and you don't need to take on those emotions. And everything's gonna be okay. And you're enough and you're worthy. And you don't need to doubt or question yourself just live freely. And don't take on the weight of the world. Just be a kid. And I love you.

Lauren Jean: 42:06

Beautiful. Just stay there with her for a moment. And just feel her let her warm little body connect with yours. feel her happiness and her joy just from hearing that from you. And just keep listening to me. So Melissa, you also need to become aware that everything is available to you. It always has it always will be. And of course when you were that little girl you had all the attention when you were born. Before that five year old. Your first experience on the planet was being looked at was being loved. Whoever was there with you, nurses, midwives, doctors, whoever was there they all looked at you they all gave you the attention. They all gave you the love. So I want you to let this little girl now let her feel this through your own emotions. Create the emotion inside that these words that I'm going to say will create so that you can transfer them to her. Tell this little girl that love real lasting love is available to her. Tell her the masses of success are also available to her. Tell her that having the most healthy life. Having the most amazing health until she's 99 is available to her success. Love money, wealth, health. It's all available. Tell this little baby how lovable she is how trusted she is, how much love she's going to have as she grows up. The wonderful people that she's going to meet and love. Love is all around her trust is all around her. Show this little girl, the life she's going to have. Show her all the amazing things that she can do and have and be. Melissa I want you to take responsibility of parenting yourself because no one can do it like you can. Melissa you have the power to transform yourself. Melissa you have the most phenomenal power right now. Because understanding your past is incredible. Can every day you can tap into this power. So I want you to understand this little girl of five who could reiated this belief that she's not trusted. So she created this control within her mind. I want you to understand that this little girl has lived in you for 30 years. 30 years, she's been kept there 30 years, I want you to take this little girl, put your arms around her. And I want you to take her into your world today. Bring her there. Take her to where you live now. And I want you to show her all of the things that you have. I want you to introduce her to your own family, to your dog. introduce her to the family that you have. Tell her about all the friends that she has in the world right now. Online offline, wherever I want you to take her around each room in your home, show her the freedom that she has. I want you to show her all the clothes that she has, that she couldn't have when she was small because it wasn't her choice. Show her your phone. And that you can connect with anyone anywhere in the entire world. I want you to show her your podcast, your love, your love of connection and helping other people show her that you do that right now. And that you're doing that with her right now. Show her that she can eat all the food that she wants, whenever she wants. She can watch TV whenever she wants. She can go camping all the time. And that big, beautiful RV, she can have so much fun and freedom in there. And she can play whenever she wants, she can play in nature whenever she wants. Tell her she can go to sleep whenever she wants. Just tell her about the life that she has right now. Give her that show her that let her feel it. Let her feel that by transforming and transmitting those vibes from you to her by simply holding her. Melissa, I want you to upgrade this little girl into your world right now. Because guess what, when you put her in your world, and you install her there, you can never go back and live in that other life even in your daydreams. So just take a nice deep breath in as you connect with her. And continue just listening. So again, Melissa, showed this little girl that everything is available to her. And I want you to feel this little girl as if she's hovering about a foot above your head. She's just floating there. And I want you to allow her inch by inch bit by bit to descend down drop, literally, to merge with you. That sweet little girl who knew at the age of five wasn't what she wanted, is taking up residence in your world in your life right now. That's because that's what she wants. It's exactly what she wants. That freedom. That trust that love. continued growth and fun. Because you're empowered, you're motivated, you're talented, you're ambitious, and you're driven. And this little girl needs a boost. And she's gonna live within you for the rest of her life. take a nice deep breath in. Good job, good job. Good job that go on with that breath. So Melissa, I just want you to imagine that in your left hand. You're holding these three scenes. And the first one is you're about five or six anyone To go sit in your dad's lap, he got aggravated. He didn't want you in his lap, you felt unwanted, not worthy of love. And the second one is you're about 10. And you're at your dad's house in Tennessee. With your step, siblings, you're feeling stupid. Because your dad didn't have patience with what you were doing. And you were feeling worthless. And then in the third scene, you're again, about five years old, you're being corrected all of the time, even opening up jars, nothing mattered no matter what you did. You're doing it wrong. I want you to look at those three scenes. And I want you to tell me how having those three scenes, in your opinion, cause the scene today where you're feeling like you can't trust yourself. And of course, it's my job to tell you, but I want you to understand what you think about that, Melissa? So if you had to tell me in one sentence, or a couple of sentences, on how those three scenes that you're holding in your left hand, affected the scene today, that will use as your right hand, you're seeing today is your right hand. What would you tell me about those three scenes and how they affected your life today, in your right hand, with lack of self trust, I just feel that all of those scenes have the same patterns of anything that I did was either corrected or put down to made me feel stupid. Or just worthless. It just became a continuous pattern. So that's all I knew. And not only these scenes, but other other parts. So going older, I questioned everything I did. As if I had my father standing over my shoulder, telling me it wasn't enough, or it wasn't good enough, or it wasn't the way that it was supposed to be done. Okay. So one more time, I want to say this again. And I want you to finish this sentence says that, when I look at those three scenes from my past, you can say that out loud,

Melissa Bright: 52:49

when I look at these three scenes from my past. And when I look at my scene today, and I look at my scene today, I understand that those three scenes, I understand that those three scenes

Lauren Jean: 53:03

make me feel blank today. Make me feel worthless today. Okay, so I'm going to suggest some things to you. Because of course, you've been kept there for about 30 years, this belief that you're worthless, and you can't trust yourself, and everything that you do is wrong. But you see, you're burdened with something that you didn't even know that you were truly burdened with, which is your dad is always looking over you, therefore you're worthless, and everything has to be corrected, which then comes to this lack of self trust. So I want you to think of Have you ever truly thought about it in that way. But I want you to understand that that was a belief that you started to believe at five years old, five years old, you created this belief. Now you're 35 and you have the choice to create a transformation within yourself right now. You carried on believing this belief for 30 years. You don't have to believe that belief anymore. It wasn't true. You are beautiful. You are gorgeous. You were just pure love. Just take a nice deep breath. job, good job. doing absolutely amazing. So now this is the point where I would create your recording for you. So you can open up your eyes, and we'll do that in a second. Just open up your eyes when you're ready. Just take your time we'll do the recording in a second.

Melissa Bright: 55:36

Whoo, baby. You feeling good? Holy crap. I was a lot further than I thought I was. Yeah, you are. I could tell. I felt like it took me eternity to get back here. Oh my gosh.

Lauren Jean: 55:56

So if there's anything else that you want to say to the podcast listeners before we go into the recording, that's again, that's up to you.

Melissa Bright: 56:05

Yeah, that was amazing. Emotional. You know, you might have been able to hear the quivering in my voice. It just feels good. I'm still like in this tears to a little release there. Yeah. I'm still kind of like in this trance relaxed state. For sure. Cool. Yeah, it was really cool. It was awesome. Amazing. Yeah. I'm totally like, calm right now. I can tell you're just like, chill, normal. You're giddy. I know. I'm like, Whoa, like so. So calm. So calm.

Lauren Jean: 56:56

Yeah, that's just the beginning, girl. I'm excited. All right, we can go do the next whatever we do. Right. So do you want to keep recording it at this point, or? Yeah, let's do it. We're not. I mean, yeah, let's do it. And we can either choose tonight.

Melissa Bright: 57:16

Yeah. Okay. All righty.

Unknown: 57:21

Very good. All right. So just closing your eyes again. Okay. Just take a couple deep breaths in. Just give me a second. I get this started for you. Because now this will be your personal recording that you listened to for 21 days. All right. My throat. Sorry, my GarageBand is deciding to give me problems right now. Okay. Um, total totally chill right now. Okay, all right. Here we go. We are good, similar. So just make yourself comfortable. When you're ready, either lying or sitting with your hands on cross and your feet not quite touching. Just look up as high as you possibly can.

Lauren Jean: 58:37

By doing the eye thing again. Oh, shit. Okay. All right. Let me start that over. Sorry. Sorry. Okay. pretend like you're listening to this when you're going to listen to it. All right. Okay. Okay. All right. So Melissa, just make yourself comfortable. Right when you're ready, either lying or sitting. With your hands, uncross and your feet, not quite touching. Just look up as high as you possibly can. As if you're looking into your own eyebrows, keeping your eyes glued to a real or imagined spot overhead. I want you to take a nice deep breath in and breathe out. And every time you blink, that's hypnosis coming upon you. Again, keeping your eyeballs rolled up all the way up as if you're trying to look into your own eyebrows. Again, breathe in and breathe out. And just one final time. Keep your eyes up all the way up way up. Breathe in. Breathe out, keeping your eyeballs up holding it and this time as you exhale. Just shut your eyelids all the way down way down and as your eyelids shut down the muscles and nerves in and around. Your eyes are becoming heavy, droopy, drowsy, your eyelids are starting to feel as if they've been glued, shut, sealed. Shut locked tight. Melissa, you can ferox and forget all about your eyes just allow a drifting floating feeling to develop in your entire body. And just picture in your mind 10 steps descending, you're standing at the top of 10 steps, you're looking down those 10 steps, flood your mind with a beautiful, relaxing, soothing color. And you're just looking down. You can drop your chin a fraction as if you're looking down those 10 steps. And now you moving on to Step 10. And each as you do, each muscle, every nerve turns loose, lets loose and you go deeper. You're taking Step nine, and eight, you can see your feet here, your feet, feel your feet, treading each step, going deeper into an awareness of yourself. You're taking step stuffing, drifting way down deep. You're taking Step six, and you're drifting with every sound, every noise, every single movement you hear is taking you further and deeper into hypnosis, you're taking Step five, you're halfway down, Melissa, you're taking stuff for every muscle, every nerve turns loose, let's loose and you go deeper, you're taking Step three, just to go deeper, drift deeper, sink deeper, you're taking step two. And one, you're going deeper into an awareness of yourself, you're going deeper, drifting, deeper, sinking deeper, just go deeper and deeper, and even deeper still. Just go deeper. take a nice deep breath. And, Melissa, as you drift deeper down to a calming, healing, relaxing level, you're listening with your subconscious mind. You know that understanding is power and understanding in hypnosis is the most phenomenal, liberating transforming power. As you go deeper, you can look over and around right through that sweet child's mind, who simply believed that she wasn't good enough. And she couldn't trust herself. And she wasn't lovable. That little child at the age of five, as you look over and around and through those childhood scenes, and any others that might surface it all makes perfect sense. Because now you understand how and why those scenes affected you. You can see how any child in that situation would have felt the same. But now you understand something far more powerful. You form those beliefs and came to conclusions when you had only been on the planet for five years. And now you don't need to believe them ever again. Instead, you believe and know with unwavering certainty, that you are powerful that you can trust yourself. And you can do anything that you want. You have this unshakable conviction that as a beautiful, talented, lovable, passionate woman and adults that will never ever again be appropriate or relevant or remotely necessary to believe those beliefs you believe then or to think the thoughts you thought then you now fully understand the conclusions you came to and the decisions you made about yourself, hurt you. Now your beliefs are yours to change. And as you change them, you're changing everything in such a wonderful healing permanent way. Melissa, your past is not your past. It is in the past, it is behind you. It does not cannot and will not ever affect you again. So now you have this understanding. You are liberated. You have erased, eradicated, eliminated, shattered and smashed all of those old beliefs. They are gone. They are unable to influence you ever again. Melissa, you are now transformed, liberated, empowered, and delighted with your progress. Every day the most phenomenal, powerful transformation is happening to you. You are at peace with yourself. Melissa, you are enough. You listen to yourself more rather than the outside world. any old anxious thoughts, guilty feelings, trust issues, anything are going away. They're shrinking, fading and disappearing. They are gone from your mind. You're indifferent to all of those feelings gone from your body gone from your Life. Melissa, as you go deeper you are commanding, instructing compelling your mind, your body, your psyche, to release all unwanted thought patterns, critical voices and feedback loops that are outdated, outmoded and unnecessary. They are fading, dissolving, disappearing, released and gone forever. You are commanding and compelling your crystal clear, calm and focused mind to go right back to your original infant encoding, as nature intended it. Your brilliant, brilliant mind is remembering that you are absolutely enough and completely lovable and trusting. And while your mind remembers reactivates re manifest this truth. That fact that you are and always have been so incredibly lovable, so enough, so trustworthy. This is having a powerful, permanent impact on you right now. Melissa, as you go deeper, you understand a greater truth that you were born with an incredible skill and capability to process information. rationally and calmly. As this truth sinks in, it is forming a belief knowing this, believing this doing this permits you to let go and relax. Relax your body, relax your mind. And just allow your thoughts to flow calmly, easily and effortlessly. observing them with a balanced point of view, and experiencing the deep calm that comes with reflecting on reality realistically. Melissa, as you observe your thoughts, they come into your awareness. You notice you are indeed staying calm. In ways you didn't know that you could you notice that you are indeed calm in ways you didn't know that you could. Consciously taking in everything in stride, trusting yourself. Feeling good, feeling great, loving yourself. Knowing that you have that effortless yet powerful control now, control over the way you choose to respond, to react to trust calmly, easily, confidently. Melissa, you think like a calm person, you act calm and relaxed and trusting. You feel like a trusting person. From this calm and trusting perspective of yourself, you realize that analysis is one thing. And letting go of stuff is quite another. You now trust yourself profoundly as you make excellent choices and sound decisions for your life, for your relationship, for your health, for your family, for your podcast. Knowing your brilliant mind knows exactly how to do this easily and effortlessly. You don't need to try. Your mind learns by repetition. So as you play this recording every single day, my voice goes with you It stays embedded in you. It has a powerful, all pervasive impact on you. You hear these words, you think these thoughts you completely accept these suggestions. They go right in, they sink right in like lotion on dry skin. You love playing this recording and every time you play it, you go to an even deeper level. Melissa, your inner mind the most driving part of you is commanding and compelling you to recognize this, to know this, to feel the absolute truth that you are enough and that you have that inner self trust. You are completely trusting you are completely lovable. Every day you say these words to yourself. I trust myself. I trust myself more than anyone else. I am at peace with myself I am enough. I listened to myself, and I feel good about it. I feel great about it. You are calmly, confidently creating your life exactly how you choose. And because you know now this to be true. You only allow in the words and the emotions that support and resonate this truth. So as you accept these suggestions, your mind is motivating you commanding you, compelling you, and conditioning you to trust yourself, to love your life, to live your life in a calm, relaxed, happy, joyful way. You're able to let go of the past Melissa to feel good about the present, to have such a great expectations and feelings for the future. It is having the most profound permanence, the most positive healing effect on you. You feel extraordinary. You feel light, you feel free. You feel lovable, you feel more than enough. You feel alive and you feel brilliant. Because you are. You are brilliant, lovable, trusting, knowing. Knowing that you trust yourself, you are capable adult with so many amazing skills. Every morning. As you awaken Melissa, you remember your new beliefs based on the unshakable truth that you are enough that you trust yourself that you are lovable, you are calm, you are capable, you are creative. You have phenomenal coping spells, skills. You own it, you believe it. You repeat these words to yourself on a daily basis, confidently calmly, as you enjoy the process of being you the real you. The relaxed you the knowing, having the knowing inside of yourself, you become calm. So Melissa, as you drift deeper, you hear my words as I am commanding and compelling your crystal clear, calm, focused, intuitive feeling and trusting mind to go right back to your original imprint and coding. Exactly as nature designed it. Your brilliant mind is motivating you commanding you, compelling you and conditioning you. Programming you to love your life. Love Your calm, focused care, free trust, trusting life. Every day you celebrate and rejoice in this new positive way of being. It is having the most profound, the most powerful, permanent, all pervasive impact. The most incredible healing effect on you. You feel extraordinary, you feel lovable, you feel free. You feel more than enough, you feel lit up inside. You feel alive because you trust yourself. You trust yourself like you've never trusted yourself before. And you feel brilliant. Because the truth about you, Melissa is that you are brilliant, and you know it. You're now going to repeat these words with me just in your head. I am commanding and compelling my crystal clear mind to go way back to my original coating, and imprint and function perfectly harmoniously, exactly as nature intended me to. And just one more time. I am commanding and compelling my mind, my body, my psyche to go back, back way back to my original coding back to my original imprint back to my DNA back to my cells, to my function. Everything functions perfectly harmoniously, exactly as nature intended me to. I am lovable. I am enough. I have incredible self trust. I am at peace with myself. I am enough. I listened to myself more rather than the outside world. And you know, just by hearing these words, it's causing your inner mind to picture to manifest to create exactly what I'm describing for you. In your imagination, there are no limits. As a result of these changes, you fall asleep easily and effortlessly Melissa and sleep so soundly at night, and you will dream the most healing, releasing liberating dreams whilst the infinite wisdom of your body is regenerating, rejuvenating and revitalizing every single cell of your body. all necessary changes and reorg minimization of subconscious structures have been made and finalized. So when you're ready, you can slowly, calmly, easily return to your full awareness. If you play this recording prior to sleeping, you will simply ignore the counting and drift into asleep, relaxing, sleep, and dream the most wonderful healing dreams. So on the count of one feeling amazing, feeling wonderful feeling trusting and at ease on the count of to feeling safe and secure, calm and collected. On the count of three feeling extraordinary. Because the truth about you, Melissa, is you are extraordinary. On the count of four, fill up your lungs, take a nice deep breath and feel the sensation and energy coming into your body. On the count of five, just open up your eyes. Welcome back. Oh, oh my gosh. I'm so relaxed with there'll be some music in the background for you. So it'll be more than just my voice.

Melissa Bright: 1:16:27

No worries. So do I say anything? No, no. Okay.

Lauren Jean: 1:16:34

That's just the recording that you simply listen to you plug it into your ears and you just lay down. You can listen to that in the morning or at night. That's when your subconscious is more wide awake.

Melissa Bright: 1:16:48

Right? So is it I think I asked you this before Is it bad? Like if I listened to it, and then I fall asleep? And I don't actually hear it?

Lauren Jean: 1:16:57

Well, you don't need to hear it because you're turning off your conscious mind.

Melissa Bright: 1:17:02

You're so sweet to it. Okay, cool. Yeah. Oh my gosh, that was amazing. that I have. Okay, so since I didn't put my arms out, how did you know that I was hypnotized.

Lauren Jean: 1:17:17

Well, I could see by your body. First of all, there's there's a couple of signs, but then also, I did do the suggestibility tests about opening your eyes. And you didn't otherwise if you wanted to, you could have Yeah, but you were so suggestible. It was kind of like, No, I want to stay here. Want to come out of this right? thing, you know?

Melissa Bright: 1:17:41

Yeah, that was awesome. So if I wanted to meditate, I just all I have to do is just get my eyeball. Put my eyes up. Yeah, that'll take you into a deeper state. Perfect. And because I first I was worried about the blinking and then you're like, no, the blinking is supposed to do that. I'm like, Okay, good, because I can't keep them up there that much longer. Yeah. That is so awesome. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank

Lauren Jean: 1:18:12

you. You're welcome.

Melissa Bright: 1:18:14

All right. So yeah, um, this episode will be next Tuesday's, but I'm going to work on it this week. So that's what we'll do. But I don't I don't think there's anything. I didn't say anything that I feel that's gonna hurt anybody. And so yeah, we're good. I'm gonna find

Lauren Jean: 1:18:38

easy what like, we think happened to us. Like, if you think about this, it's like, nothing was that horrible, but you make it out to be so much worse. Right? Like, if you look at these scenes the way they were, it's like, your dad didn't really do anything that horrible and yet your mind still made it to be like he was the worst thing in the world. Right. But it was really him struggling with his own shit.

Melissa Bright: 1:19:07

Yep. Yep. Exactly. You know, I mean, a lot of the times there are horrible things.

Lauren Jean: 1:19:13

Yes, I know your case. Not really not with these seeds in your subconscious is going to take you back to the scenes that are relevant to that issue of trust. Yeah. And it was that's he didn't trust himself. He didn't know how to love it, and he then transfer that to you. Mm hmm. So that's not even your beliefs. They're just like, kind of like plopped in there.

Melissa Bright: 1:19:38

Right. Wow. Is it normal to kind of have your head hurt a little bit afterwards? Well, it could because my damn freakin headphones to that have been like right here on my noggin.

Lauren Jean: 1:19:51

It could be that but then you also released some stuff as well. So it's kind of like a release of the pressure. I know. I've had like I've cried in sessions like sterically So, yeah, got rid of a lot of stuff. So your body's gonna react differently right now could react differently every single time. That's true. That is true. Well, awesome. Well, thank you. Do you have any questions for me right now? No, not at all. Okay, perfect. I mean, we're doing this but normally I would tell people to try to like stay away from any kind of screen or just don't go on social for like a good hour. Okay. still kind of in a floaty suggestible state right now, you don't want to really take anything in from you know, social media. Okay, are you with yourself journaled? Go for a walk, play with your dog? Just do something away from a screen? Okay. journaling might be good right now, too, because other memories might come up, and you can write things down.

Melissa Bright: 1:20:49

Okay. Awesome. Thank you. We'll be in touch. Am I getting the recording tonight or tomorrow?

Lauren Jean: 1:20:55

I'm going to do it right now. So you'll have it tonight. So you can listen to it when you go to bed tonight. Follow? You don't have to, but it can't hurt.

Melissa Bright: 1:21:01

Yeah, exactly. All right. Thank you so much, Lauren. I'm so excited. That was awesome. That was amazing. And I'm going to go play with my puppy dog now. And he did really good. I heard him line one time. Like, that's a record. So he was barking quite a lot. You didn't hear it? Yeah. Well, I heard it. I think like one time

Lauren Jean: 1:21:20

it was going and going and going and going. Oh, shit. Well, that's fine. didn't disturb you. That's all it matters. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. Awesome. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I will talk to you soon. Okay.

Melissa Bright: 1:21:32

No problem. I'll talk to you soon. Bye. Thank you guys so much for listening to this special episode. I don't even know what to say. That is me. Definitely putting my vulnerable self out there. And I just wanted people to experience it. I know I've had a lot of people reach out to me wanting to know what, what I was going to do what I was going to try to fix with this hypnosis. But RTT is more than what I just did. Now, as you guys can hear, I'm going to be listening to a recording for 21 days. And if you did listen to this episode, before Lauren's other episode, I highly encourage you to go back and listen to Episode 36. Because she explains everything and really dives deep into all the things that this kind of therapy can really help. And if this is something that you are interested in, please check the show notes. And there will have Lauren's information there. This recording was done this Monday, and I have been listening to my recording every night since and I actually listened to it multiple times I do it until I fall asleep with it. And it's just been amazing. And I can't wait to report back in 21 days, but just overall these past five days, it's now Friday. And I've been listening to it since Monday. And it's just been in such an incredible thing. And the best way I can explain it right now is some beliefs that I had around trusting myself and self worth. It's like, if that thought does come into my head around, not trusting myself, it it goes out of my mind just as quickly as it came in. Where before sometimes I would sue and just ask myself, you know all these things. So I think that's just the beginning of how awesome this therapy is going to be. So thank you guys so much for listening to this episode. And if you guys know of anyone that may be interested in listening to this, or learning more about RTT please share this episode with them because we never know if this is the one that puts hope back in their heart.